Lent – 40 Day Journey of God’s Renewal

“Aren’t you, like me, hoping that some person, thing, or event will come along to give you that final feeling of inner well-being you desire? Don’t you often hope: ‘May this book, idea, course, trip, job, country or relationship fulfill my deepest desire.’ But as long as you are waiting for that mysterious moment you will go on running helter-skelter, always anxious and restless, always lustful and angry, never fully satisfied. You know that this is the compulsiveness that keeps us going and busy, but at the same time makes us wonder whether we are getting anywhere in the long run. This is the way to spiritual exhaustion and burn-out. This is the way to spiritual death.”
 ― Henri J.M. Nouwen, Life of the Beloved: Spiritual Living in a Secular World

There is something beautiful about the 40 days of Lent. There is peace. joy. giving. love. All that makes up the characteristics of God Almighty. There is nothing sweeter than the presence of God. Daily Bible Reading. Staying Connected to Him in prayer throughout the day. I love talking to him about everything and knowing that he cares about everything that concerns me.

I’m willing to give up the things that are wasteful and useless and in place draw closer to him without all the noise that fills up my days.

Lent for me is a time of surrender, giving it all up for the One Who gave His Life for me. It is a time of renewal, reflection of what Christ did for me and mankind.

It is more than just not eating certain things or doing certain tasks, it is depending on him for all that my heart desires.

It’s a time to check my heart condition and I’m not talking about the physical heart but the emotions the conditions of my soul.

It is a time of me giving my pains, disappointments to God and asking him to heal me and fill me with his love because nothing else will do.

It is a time of letting go and letting God love me.

As long as I keep running about asking: “Do you love me? Do you really love me?” I give all power to the voices of the world and put myself in bondage because the world is filled with “ifs.” The world says: “Yes, I love you if you are good-looking, intelligent, and wealthy. I love you if you have a good education, a good job, and good connections. I love you if you produce much, sell much, and buy much.” There are endless “ifs” hidden in the world’s love. These “ifs” enslave me, since it is impossible to respond adequately to all of them. The world’s love is and always will be conditional. As long as I keep looking for my true self in the world of conditional love, I will remain “hooked” to the world-trying, failing,and trying again. It is a world that fosters addictions because what it offers cannot satisfy the deepest craving of my heart.”

“solitude begins with a time and a place for God, and God alone.  If we really believe not only that God exists but also that God is actively present in our lives– healing, teaching and guiding– we need to set aside a time and space to give God our undivided attention.  (Matt 6:6)”

As I continue with the reamining of the 40 days,  I will do what will create more room for goodness and give room for God to come in.

His Truly,



Hungry Soul

When we rely on over-stuffing ourselves with food, drinking until we get drunk, or conducting an adulterous relationship, we are revealing a desperate attempt to silence the cries of a hungry soul.

Our souls have the same ravenous intensity as a vacuum cleaner; that’s how God created us — with a longing to be filled. It is a longing God instilled to draw us into deep intimacy with Him.

c/o Made to Crave by Lisa TerKeurst

Don’t Worry, God is Always On Time

Today, I was reminded how when the Bible talks about seasons- they are not seasons we decide. Our life is in God’s hands. Our times are in His hands. Our part is to be faithful to God in the season we are in. The way we approach and react to it is in our hands. How we handle situations shows our character and effects others around us whether we realize it or not.

I was reminded that even though God is never too late, he isn’t early either. He is just right on time. Until then….

Galatians 6:9 Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.


Beauty for Ashes

No matter how perfect a person may seem from the outside, we don’t know the matters of their hearts. Only the Lord does. Sometimes we don’t even know the matters of our own heart. Everything may be going well and yet we could feel wrong and uneasy from unresolved issues from the past or sometimes it is because we have taken on more than we can handle.That’s why it is so important to have a close relationship with God because He is the one that gives us all the wisdom we need if we ask Him.

We all have strengths and weaknesses. Sadly, human nature is to talk about our weaknesses and the faults of others rather than our strengths and the good of others.

We judge to quickly, instead of being more compassionate.

We criticize more than we encourage each other.

We isolate ourselves from friends who have hurt us and expect good relationships.

We constantly complain instead of doing something about it.

More than ever, we need to accept responsibility and not blame things on God. A lot of times our lives turn out the way they do because of our poor choices. God won’t do for us what we can and should do for ourselves and we can’t do for ourselves what only God can do for us. It’s a partnership. The awesome thing about it is you could never screw up so bad that God can’t help you with it. God is God. He is able!!! No matter where we come from, what has happened to us, it does not need to continue. If we pray, God is faithful to intervene and help us in all the areas of our lives. If we give him our ashes, he promises to turn them into beauty.

Partner with God.