Hungry Soul

When we rely on over-stuffing ourselves with food, drinking until we get drunk, or conducting an adulterous relationship, we are revealing a desperate attempt to silence the cries of a hungry soul.

Our souls have the same ravenous intensity as a vacuum cleaner; that’s how God created us — with a longing to be filled. It is a longing God instilled to draw us into deep intimacy with Him.

c/o Made to Crave by Lisa TerKeurst

i cry more than my baby

I cry when I’m happy
I cry when I’m sad
I cry when I’m hurt
I cry during movies
I cry when someone seems to have forgotten about me
I cry when my daughter has boo boo. I’m tempted to cry with her every time she cries.

I cry easily and often. It seems like that’s how I express any kind of real raw emotion.

Sometimes when I cry happy tears, I need to state a disclaimer to my hubby so he wouldn’t think it’s cuz he did something wrong. But he is getting better at understanding my cry language.

He usually laughs about it but for the most part doesn’t mind the tears.

I don’t like or enjoy crying in front of people though. It makes me feel weak when I want to appear strong and “i got this.”

I also don’t like how I look when i’m crying. It’s not a pretty sight.
I don’t mind the occasional tears running down my face – that one isn’t bad.
When I cry cuz of my heart hurting – that is the worst.

It’s ok to cry, it shows how alive we are and it’s not a sign of weakness as long as you’re not throwing a self-pity party. But even then, i think ever girl deserves to have a pity party for 15 minutes at least and move on.

You know what I hate. When we try to cover up our emotions by blaming our hormones, stress level or PMS or something else to cover the pain in our hearts. Sure hormones have an effect and I know this because they were whack during my pregnancy and I can tell the difference.

I also don’t like when guys underestimate our feelings criticising us for Over reacting or being a drama queen so we ladies like to down play our emotions to not be called names like crazy bitch, drama queen, or emotional.

While we shouldn’t be controlled by our emotions but we should let our emotions indicate the condition of our hearts and the truth will set us free and heal.

Art of not having to…

Anytime we make a rule or religion out of something, it sucks the life out of it.

We go our days complaining about the things we have to do and wishing we didn’t have to do it.

The truth is we really don’t have to do anything other than pay taxes and die. We don’t really even have to pay taxes unless we want to go to jail.

The choice is ours.

If we want to live victoriously and good quality lives, then we can choose to form good habits that lead us into that direction. If we WANT something then we CHOOSE to do something about it. We don’t HAVE TO do anything. Really.

In my own life,  I don’t have to read the bible, pray or go to church. I choose and want to do those things because my life is better when I do them.

I don’t have to eat healthy or exercise but I choose to because I want to be a certain size and look a certain way.

I don’t have to work. I want to because I want to have a place to live and food to eat.

 

I encourage you, to re-focus from having to, to wanting to.

If we make the switch, we will start enjoying our every day lives even when performing minimal and what may seem “unimportant.” tasks.

Mother Theresa said something like it’s not how much you do but how much love you put  in each of your actions.

 

xoxo

Elle

 

 

Since last August

A few blogs ago, when I was making my birthday wish list, I said we will come back to relfect on my last year since my birthday.

Well last year in August, I was determined to lose all the baby weight by Dec 2011 but I haven’t. I still have 40lbs to go. So my goal is to lose it by this Dec 2012.

Last year for my birthday hubby and i went to vegas for 3 days and this year we plan on going to san diego for one night. Emma was only 3 months old when we left her with mom, so I was having panic attacks being away from her that long.

I’ve grown a lot since last year. I’ve transitioned into motherhood. It took me awhile.

It’s been almost a year since I’ve been back to work since my maternity leave.

I’ve enrolled in 2 classes for the fall.

I signed up at the gym and have being going 3 x a week.

I’ve rekindled some old friendships.

I’m in a better place, mentally, emotionally.

I’ve learned I can be tough when I need to be

I have experienced some biblical truths that “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

I was having really bad self-image cuz of my weight gain, but I’ve learned to accept it at any size and work on toward my goal.

I’ve been getting a lot more sleep since Emma is older.

I’m enjoying play time with my baby more than anything.

i love family time.

We started going to church as a family once Emma turned 6 months – we enrolled her in our Church’s nursery.

My goals for my next birthday would be:

Have lost all the weight, and look/feel better than ever.

Finished/or close to finish my degree.

Go out-of-town with the entire family

🙂

El

All the Right Motives

Next time you want to do something or buy something ask yourself this:

Why am I really doing this?

Why do I need this?

Do I truly need this?

Am I trying to impress?

Because so many of us are caught in the vicious cycle of doing things trying to impress the people we don’t like.

check your motives before your wreck yourself.

Lets encourage one another to do the right thing for the right reasons.

We Buy Things We Don’t Need

With Money We Don’t Have

To Impress People We Don’t Like