What are you eating for?

I’m almost done with my 21 days of Made to Crave Devotional. I just finished day 19 today which means I’ve also been very watchful and mindful of what I’m putting in my body. More so in the last week.

Last week was very stressful for us and I found myself asking my hubby,

“Which is harder having a stressful week or having a stressful week and not being able to eat all the junk you’d like.”

During the last week, not being able to run to food for comfort gave me a few things to think about.

When we go to our parents, are we going because we want to see them and spend time with them or are we going to eat mama’s homemade lasagna?

When we look forward to our lunch are we looking forward to going out and catching up with our friend more than we are about enjoying that burger?

I’m not saying eating is bad or wanting to eat is bad. But how and when are we eating? and how much and for what reason?

It is typical to celebrate with food but what about day in and day out, are we eating to fuel bodies or are we rewarding ourselves like puppies?

It’s been so hard especially this past week, I didn’t allow myself to even cheat on weekends, and not even the superbowl.

I have 5 more weeks to go until I go by the 90% rule, which means I can have one cheat day/week 🙂

 

 

 

Week 1: Eat to Live Program

ok so I started this week with the Six week Eat to Live Program. I did really well for the most part!! I’m actually impressed that I didn’t start emotional eating due to stress and new changes in my schedule. I did however eat some salsa and chips for lunch today so I’m going to make up for it by eating really light for the rest of the day.

Since we have a 3 day weekend, I must plan my eating the next 3 days carefully so I don’t blow it. I can’t make excuses because there just is NEVER the perfect time. It’s always someone’s event, birthday or labor day. So I have to stay focused. Keep my eyes on what’s head and the goal.

 

Post Baby Body

I never realized how hard losing weight could be  until I had a lot of weight to lose. Before pregnancy, losing weight was not so hard because I didn’t have a lot to lose but after baby, it’s been a bit of a struggle.

I was a size 2, when I became pregnant with my daughter and I gained total of Jessica Simpson. I gained a lot. Fine, 85 lbs. It’s twice as much as you’re supposed to gain. Me and my baby were completely fine and gave birth to 9lbs 1.6 oz healthy baby. I got up an walked after my last push. 🙂

Soon after, I was on a mission to get my pre baby body back asap!

If I had Weight Watchers sign me on for a million dollar contract, I am pretty sure I would have been to my size 2 by now.

I’m open to them, if they’re interested in me.

My daughter turned 1 this May and I’ve lost 60lbs and have about 25 lbs more to go.

I could have lost more, but somewhere along those months, I lost hope and I almost started believing that maybe they are right, I will not get my body back. So, I stopped making looking good a priority because to a lot of people my desire to be thin again was seen as vain and it was something for a mom to get over it, you’re a mom now.

Not me.

I care about the way I look. I want to feel good inside and out. Not just inside. Looking good, feeling sexy, wearing the tiny, tight outfits are important to me. If I want to have that, I need to make daily sacrifices and practice discipline and self-control.

I’m not obsessing about losing the weight fast nor am I get discouraged anymore.

I have rather accepted the idea that it will take some time but I will get there.

Where as before, I wanted to get there now.

I have so much respect for the moms who don’t lose themselves and still take care of themselves because they love themselves. Because you are worth it!

But I also understand, and feel for the moms who want to but don’t have the time or the child care to go to the gym or make time to work out at home.

I used say “oh, if you really want it, you will make the time!”

That was before I even got pregnant.

Experience is our greatest teacher.

It’s true for eating habits but I know with a baby, it’s very difficult to make the time to work out. An alternative would be taking the kids out on a stroll or finding a dvd workout for kids to do together. That will get you moving! Start somewhere. 🙂

Sometimes, a bag of hot cheetos, will really get a mom through the day. I’ve had days like that!

I think it taught me the importance of living in the season you’re in and not someone’s else’s season.

It taught me to accept things for what it is and it also taught me true change comes from getting so fed up with your current situation, that it pushes you to make changes to get to where you want to be.

For me, it’s been, taking walks around the transit center at work 2-3 times a day total of 45 minutes and going to the gym with hubby at least 3 times a week.  I’ve been eating healthier, trying to go back to my vegeterian diet, and treating my body with respect because it really works hard for me and I need to fuel it with nutrients it deserves.

I consider myself lucky to have a husband, who, not once made a comment about my weight but has loved me the same through my ups and downs, bones and curves, and all of me. He has been a constant support through it all.  I love him lots.

xo

El.