What are you eating for?

I’m almost done with my 21 days of Made to Crave Devotional. I just finished day 19 today which means I’ve also been very watchful and mindful of what I’m putting in my body. More so in the last week.

Last week was very stressful for us and I found myself asking my hubby,

“Which is harder having a stressful week or having a stressful week and not being able to eat all the junk you’d like.”

During the last week, not being able to run to food for comfort gave me a few things to think about.

When we go to our parents, are we going because we want to see them and spend time with them or are we going to eat mama’s homemade lasagna?

When we look forward to our lunch are we looking forward to going out and catching up with our friend more than we are about enjoying that burger?

I’m not saying eating is bad or wanting to eat is bad. But how and when are we eating? and how much and for what reason?

It is typical to celebrate with food but what about day in and day out, are we eating to fuel bodies or are we rewarding ourselves like puppies?

It’s been so hard especially this past week, I didn’t allow myself to even cheat on weekends, and not even the superbowl.

I have 5 more weeks to go until I go by the 90% rule, which means I can have one cheat day/week ūüôā




Hungry Soul

When we rely on over-stuffing ourselves with food, drinking until we get drunk, or conducting an adulterous relationship, we are revealing a desperate attempt to silence the cries of a hungry soul.

Our souls have the same ravenous intensity as a vacuum cleaner; that‚Äôs how God created us ‚ÄĒ with a longing to be filled. It is a longing God instilled to draw us into deep intimacy with Him.

c/o Made to Crave by Lisa TerKeurst

chocolate is my comfort & coffee is my deliverer

I blogged recently about weight loss and because I committed this week to losing rest of the baby weight, I also started a devotional to go hand in hand with my eating habits called Made to crave 21 day challenge. You can dl it free from  YouVersion Bible app. It is about refocusing your mind and emotions.

I’m on day 2 with the reading called “Overweight physically and Underweight Spiritually.”

Really gets to the core of things. I think we’re naturally wired to be emotional eaters. We eat when we’re happy, sad, stressed, and bored when we should be eating when we’re hungry.

Food is good. Our bodies need good nutritious food for it to function well. We can’t have celebrations without food. But we also can’t wait for those celebrations and events to stop in order for us to maintain a healthy eating lifestyle.

God has created us to crave Him more than anything else. What is one thing that you cannot live without? He asks for the one thing and not because he is mean but because he doesn’t want us to be controlled by anything but rather be in control and have power over chocolate, donuts and cake.

He wants us to run to him when we’re stressed and not to¬†the fridge.¬†He wants to feed us spiritually so we can be powerful.

Made to crave.

I long to satisfy my deepest desire with God, not food. I want to consume food and not be consumed by it.

Wanna join the challenge?


Sign up to my blog as I will posts¬†my thoughts and parts from the ¬†devotional¬†¬† start your own study 21 day challenge¬†ūüôā




Finding Skinny Bitch


The picture to the left is one month before I got pregnant. I was a little¬†shy of 120lbs. I gained 85lbs¬†during pregnancy, way more than the average pregnancy weight gain. Emma and I didn’t have any complications¬†during pregnancy or during labor and had a regular birth with epidural.

Since Emma’s birth, I’ve lost almost 50lbs but been stuck for the last six months now.

My current weight is the average weight of what I’ve always been since my 20’s with the exception of the drastic weight loss due to¬†my vegan diet and working out 4-5x¬†a week for a year after our wedding. I went from a size 6 to a size 2-4, That one year that I maintained my weight was the year I felt my very best and ever since I’ve had Emma, it’s been a struggle getting back to my pre baby weight.

I gave up on my vegan diet during pregnancy¬†so it’s been a challenge for me to eliminate the meat and dairy but this week, I made up my mind I’m going to stick with it.

I re-read a couple of the books that first got me motivated. Books like Eat to Live, and The Skinny Bitch. (BTW the “bitch” in Skinny Bitch” is not the mean bitch you’re thinkig of, the title is picked to grab reader’s attention, says the book) The last few weeks, I committed¬†to going to the gym with my hubby. I had stopped working out during Fall Semester because I just couldn’t do it with full-time work and school and keeping the house together. It was too much.

I jokingly say that maybe my body doesn’t want to lose weight, maybe it wants to get pregnant again.

Even if we choose to go for another baby, I really want to make healthy eating choices during pregnancy and not gain as much.

I really thought all that was going to be water weight and I did have a lot of water but most of it was fat. By the time I got home from the hospital the next day, I was already down 30Lbs. Emma was born close to 10lbs and I guess the 20lbs must have been the water and placenta and the rest, fat. LOL

I tried being intense about it right when we got home from the hosptial. I’d try to eat little but that made me feel sick especially since I was breastfeeding so I couldn’t keep up with it. I just felt so icky during and after.

It’s so annoying and frustrating to see celebrity moms bounce right back in less than 4 months. It seems like every magazine cover features “How she got her body back after baby in just 90 days!”

Maybe I’m a little jealous.

One celebrity I love and can relate to is Jessica Simpson! I loved watching her pregnancy and even after because she reminded me of me! Check out her interview with Jay Leno, she is hilarious, Jessica Simpson interview

oh how I wish, someone would give me a 3 million contract to lose the weight and be their spokesperson ūüôā

Emma is almost 20 months and I’m still about 30lbs away from my ideal weight. I dont’ do diets well. Whenever I’m restricted I end up eating more. I like the word lifestyle because that makes me relax and enjoy what I eat knowing that what I’m putting in my body is to fuel it and give it what’s nutritious.

I’m determined to lose it for good by¬†eating healthy and working out and being good¬†to¬†my body.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

New International Version (NIV)

19 Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

I will update again.

The Truth About the Flu Shot

Believe it or not, I have never gotten the flu shot and that is one vaccine, I’ve refused to give to my 20 month old daughter, because I haven’t seen any difference in the ones who have got the shot.

I’m a big fan of Dr. Fuhrman and he shared this article about The truth about Flu Shot that I found interesting and worthy of sharing. http://www.diseaseproof.com/archives/cold-flu-eating-right-gives-the-most-protection-during-this-flu-season.html



30 Days of Thanskgiving Challenge

ok. so what happend was I ended up posting my daily thanksgiving on my personal fb page and now I can’t back track to post them here. It will be too much LOL Hope you have enjoyed some I posted earlier.

Until Next Year, stay thankful and show gratitude. For some people it’s harder to show but don’t use that as an excuse because if you don’t say your I love yous and Thank yous and show it too how would people know? It would be like wrapping a gift and not giving it.

Do Love, Do Thank, Just Do It.


#14 Diapers

#14 thankful for diapers. My mom tells me during our time, in Armenia, they had to use cloths, then wash them by hand (no washing machines then) to reuse.  Thanks Mom for putting up with our crap since day one. Thank you Pampers & Huggies for making our lives easier & less gross. #30daysofthanksgiving

9,10,11, 12 Thanksgiving

#9 thankful for the city for reconstructing & finally opening the 5N Hollywood Way exit to my parents’ place. Makes my dropping off Emma in the mornings so convenient.

#10 thankful for Facebook for it has reconnected me with my Elementary school girlfriends, helps us stay in touch with our families & friends in Armenia, Russia, Iran, Australia, & other countries. I Love sharing and being connected.

#11 thankful for all of our veterans. Regardless of your views on war, there is no doubt that in our country we are surrounded by brave men and women who have served their country with honor. My heart & gratitude goes out you & your families as well. Thank you.

#12 thankful for God’s Word, The Bible. God’s love letter to us- All scripture is God-breathed, living and active, useful and relevant & has been tested from generation to generation.¬† I can’t think of anything that the Bible doesn’t cover. “Your word is a lamp to my feet and light to my path” Psalm 119:105

O Lord that lends me life, Lend me a heart replete with thankfulness. ~William Shakespeare